11:06 PM - 11.02.05
Fatigue
Not much to say. Work was quiet - I think a lot of the staff were off for one reason or another. My supervisor had told me to work at my co-workers station today when we talked yesterday because of the on-going problems with the spreadsheet. It keeps doing that format wobble and I lose nearly half an hour each time - several times a day. The co-worker and the financial specialist were two of the staff not present so it was very quiet in my corner. Bliss. At the station by the kitchen it is like being in everyones' way. Can't even inhale without it being noted. I got a lot done because there were no interruptions. Didn't take lunch just had some cheese and an energy bar while I was doing the data entry. I blocked the last few days out of my head as best I could - music choices were played very loud. I can't hear you. I did do a bit of yoga around the lunch hour. Eight or nine uninterrupted hours of data entry every work day for the past two months is really beginning to bother my body. It felt great physically and mentally. Can't do it at the other station of course, but maybe there's some little corner somewhere where I could have 15 minutes o privacy. Tough to say.
The ride in to work wasn't all that pleasant - the daughter and mther laughing at the story of how the daughter had made someone feel badly just for fun. Apparently she has a blog and records her hits there. Why is hurting someone so funny. For two people who spend so much time at church one has to wonder what it is that they do there. Listening doesn't seem to be part of their repertoire. Just troubling. I'm really tired of encountering that kind of attitude but it seems to permeate a lot of society now. There have got to be some places where kindness is still considered the most appropriate behaviour.
Back home responses from a lot of the people I emailed last night. One auto respond that they are out of town until next week. Not bad. No word from my supervisor - I had asked for a definite end date on this assignment so I can make a commitment to the new contract - if it is offered of course, never assume anything right? I think I'll spend part of this weekend sending out more resumes just as a precaution. there were two or three postings in my email inbox tonight that looked pretty interesting and the recruiter did say that they are very busy with clients right now. busy is good. I'm feeling really uncomfortable staying in the situation with my supervisor right now and I just want out. When thse thoughts about yesterday sneak up on me when I'm not looking I keep feeling as though he has been trying to find a way to force a confrontation. that's why I asked him if he was trying to get rid of me a week ago. yesterday sort of confirmed that feeling and I think I deseve better. I've always gone out of my way to give my best effort and have also worked hard to be certain that I spoke very highly of him whenever I got the opprtunity. I knw the reports that I prepard and that he edited were always well received and that he got accolaes for them. I've provided a lot of value adds for him and it really is disappointing to find that even that is not enough to at least be trated with minimum courtesy or respect. That sunk in again today when I looked at the ne phone list at the co-workers desk. even the student who comes in part time is on it as is my co-worker - I'm not because I don't have a phone assigned. It took a major effort just to get a chair to call my own and I still have squatting rights at the wrokstation by the kitchen but I guess it really doesn't matter if I'm only going to be there another couple of weeks. I know whine with cheese. Anyway I'm reallt tired and I think maybe I need just to sleep. Good night dear diary.
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