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17:12 - 08/06/2012 I had an atypical stroke - blood clot only, damaged the cranial nerves 3 and 5 - and am recovering faster than expected, except for my vision. Still problems with depth perception. My dreams have returned in full colour and detail every night - I thought they were lost to my memory since last autumn. I asked the therapist if this problem was a pre-existing condition of the thalamus that was fixed by the blood clot's arrival; she startled and was intrigued by the connection. I really missed my dreamtime. Having them without the ability to recall their messages was really messing me up. Since I went to the hospital my interpretation book has gone missing, yet none of the other formats purporting to be dream dictionaries has been useful. Sigh. A test of my cognitive functions were scored two points higher than normal people who did not have stroke. I lost all my points on two drawings, since I never could draw more than stick people, I'm not too fussed. I was dropped off at my home at the end of Stampede week to make space for the retired nurses's family. I only wanted to learn how to manage two injections and 8 prescriptions without poisoning myself. Done that. Don't take all the poison. I was told that refusal of legal drugs makes one non compos mentis, but I am certain the pharmaceutical companies had a hand in promoting that lie. My youngest son and his family - wife and daughters ages 13, 2 and 1 moved in with me totally destitute from the U.S. (long story) at the end of December. They have been looking after things for me, including my kitties. I can call on my number 5 son's girlfriend who also is finished her 2nd year nursing and did a stint at a palliative care centre, as well as putting up with my son when he broke 2 vertebrae in his spine while snow-boarding in the spring. A+ has been helping me navigate the transit system as well as ensuring I get to all the health appointments and summer festivals that are running for free this time of year. I am reading "Three Weeks in December" about two adults trying to function in their society with Asperger's Syndrome/Autism. I now understand the fear of neurotypicals near me. Left standing on my own while A+ takes photos means the crowds of celebrants, some with bicycles or big strollers zipping by me; that I can't see or predict the behaviour of making me feel very off-balance and scared, ditto on the bus/train. I am slowly building up stamina and endurance between the grandbabies and the travel. I am reading "The Hobbit" aloud to the grandbabies to improve my speech (the 1 year old is walking as well as I am and delights in her small progress - I am taking lessons in patience and gratitude from her) Now my youngest grand-daughter goes and gets the book for me and asks for more story. How perfect is that? I am unable to work for at least 6 months, so says the doctor, I am not supposed to be out of hospital yet, at nearly a cost to our provincial government of $900 per day. The neurologist told me I would be in the hospital "months and months", but said I wouldn't be able to go back to work for at least 6 months. Fine by me, since I was afraid of trying to take transit in winter - the ice factored into problems with lack of depth perception. Everyone has been freaking out and telling me what I can't do based on old stories/beliefs and misinformation. I am quite capable of looking after myself. I am going to ask for financial assistance from the province for on-line courses. I want to be more employable after this is all over, wish me luck, dear diary..... � � |