11:11 p.m. - 2003-04-03
confusticate and bebother
Woke up with quite a fever and sore all over so I didn't go into work. End of month stats were due in, so I completed those and e-mailed them to B. Forgot the missing files number but working from home made that tough to calculate anyway.
I've been feeling edgy lately because I can't recall my dreams. All I remember when I wake up is a lot of loud noise and what sounds like conflict. Don't like that. Whatever I'm dreaming leaves me feeling very tired. Maybe it's just the stress at work. A did ask me at our meeting, if I really wanted to continue where I am. I'm ambivalent about it but I can't afford any more time not employed and with the Elections Canada activity, it just is dishonest to go asking a new employer to take me on when I could need a couple of months away to run whatever event the Federal government seems to be gearing up for in the near future. This is just like the circumstances I found myself in the one company where there were so many problems a few years back. The deja vu is intensifying the emotions I feel now. I just don't know how I should proceed.
Anyway I guess I'd better try to get some sleep. Maybe this time round there will be a happy ending.
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